GOD IS LOVE…I AM CREATED IN GOD'S IMAGE

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes and always perseveres.

God is patient, God is kind. God does not envy, God does not boast, God is not proud. ⁵ God does not dishonor others, God is not self-seeking, God is not easily angered, God keeps no record of wrongs. God does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. God always protects, always trusts, always hopes and always perseveres.

Ida is patient, Ida is kind. Ida does not envy, Ida does not boast, Ida is not proud. Ida does not dishonor others, Ida is not self-seeking, Ida is not easily angered, Ida keeps no record of wrongs.  Ida does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Ida always protects, always trusts, always hopes and always perseveres.

Between a wall and.....

Crazy way to live..... It’s almost certain that you are in the right track, according to the book that is. You haven’t got it 100% right yet but surely compared to “the rest” you got your ways set on the right track. But why is it that something is still amiss...why  isn't life patting you on the back on just how on track you've been. Why isn't there a bouquet of  flowery   happiness at the end of everyday .

It’s all too familiar to be afraid, not sure and angry.... The happy feeling is still strange. Truth be told, it’s safer to not be that excited, not to expect so much good to come your way. I think it’s the walls, the boundaries....they provide a safe zone, this is how far you can go, spells it out too well how you’re supposed to live your life, how it’s supposed to turn out. It’s better to know the outcome anyway and maybe it’s not allowed, it’s wrong to step out of  the boundary lines.

So who drew these lines ....who gave these rules that I live by. Deep down I have a feeling all this is self imposed.

But this is how I have always lived my life, I’d rather be warm and safe in these walls........doesn't matter if I am unsatisfied, it’s better to keep wondering what’s out there than walk out and feel that fear.

But is it really safe inside these walls...at the end of the day it takes alot for me stay inside these lines. Inside here still there’s fear and uncertainty ...alot of regret. What if’s and why not’s. I end up using too much energy just to stay in place, too much emotions not to expect much. It’s a crazy spot to be. 

Seriously, I’d rather just break loose and live free in the big world, that way I won’t be worried about how far I should go or if I can handle these much. I don’t want to live the life I am supposed to live ,I just simply want to live and enjoy my life. No walls, no corridors, no gates... just open air and opportunity, wild stretches and beautiful landscape. I want wonder and surprise. I want to give my all and yes receive it all.

Luv Ish

Learning to Cast my Cares

Don’t you just treasure those first few moments of the morning, when you’ve just woken up from beautiful slumber. That moment you feel like a new born, everything is new and fresh. It actually feels like a new day to start all over again, another opportunity to reach out to your dreams. 

But then suddenly you feel the racing and rushing of yesterday. The ‘continuity’ of life slowly dawns on you. You remember how busy your schedule is, how you freaking messed up last night .You remember that you don’t really like yourself and your life actually sucks. ......Ohhh.....Boy! You almost want to shut your eyes, no you actually shut your eyes hoping to wake up in a different place or better yet not wake up at all.You manage to get out of bed and hopefully in one piece start your daily routine which involves hanging in there! 

At this point let me just throw this in...We all have those days when you just want to lock yourself in and not talk or listen to anyone, and then somehow you step out and wonder why you hadn’t done it before. Well, this will actually surprise you....The Sun’s ray have properties that act as antidepressant. So a little dose of sunshine will lift those moods... :) Isn’t God love! See how he already has our back.

You know the Bible says that His mercies are new every morning. ..But somehow, even accepting that simple reality seems like another burden added on our already heavy load. For some, that precious moment does not even exist anymore. Our lives are choked with little cares and we have lost the authenticity of being alive and feeling the fresh senses. There’s nothing as bad as not living an authentic life and sadly majority of us do .So we chase after the best this, the perfect that only to realize that its not even about that! So we compare to a house that has lights on but nobody’s home and it’s been a while since they was home. 

I have found myself many times feeling like a robot ...going through the motions but really not in the moment at all. So am shedding all masks and looking for me again. I am learning to let all that could go wrong, go wrong. Am learning to work on giving my best today and let Christ clean up my yesterday’s mess .I am learning to give up the right to make sure that my future will be picture perfect ..I’d rather have God surprise me.

Do you ever wonder how it would be if those few blissful moments would replace every waking moment of your day?

Luv Ish!

The silent Years

I know you've been there; done it and probably still doing it .Sends thrills down your spine just thinking about how long you've been there. How many times you thought you had a voice and for sure this had to be it then went ahead and found yourself in an even tighter solitary confinement.

Am talking about when God is silent....and its funny the way He handles his business, He sends a word  or puts a vision in your heart and assures you of how his word will never go back to him without bearing fruits. Then he takes a rain check ...and He doesn't even call to say that maybe He’s stuck in traffic or something came up and He would be there in an hour or so. So you wait, and wait and wait (am not good at this ...I like results, communication, a plan of some sort) .Until you finally decide am going to get going and hope God catches up with me only to come back to waiting because it isn't going as you thought ...and sometimes you even stop waiting, you decide it’s better to have your own little plans that you know you can handle on your own .God can be such a snob sometimes....really?

Habakkuk 2:3

3 For the revelation await an appointed time;
    it speaks of the end
    and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
    it[a] will certainly come
    and will not delay.

Ok! I don’t know if this is good news ... a lot of lingering and waiting but there is an assurance .Sometimes we are so afraid of the unknown but I came to learn that the unknown is actually the best place to be because the unknown is only known to God not even the devil is preview to this. How amazing.

So it may be silent but it sure isn't quiet...there’s  a lot going on.....and with time you begin o understand the silence ,you learn to be still and be part of  the silent conversations and one day you clearly begin to hear the instructions.

Don’t sweat it, in a little while you will look back and wonder how you got there how you were transformed ...you will look in the mirror and wonder who that self assured, confident wonderful individual is. I can’t wait as I keep waiting in the silence.

Luv- Ish

The Bursting .......Place Give The Lady A Hand ❃Bishop T D Jakes❃

Its time to listen..to soak in to be ministered to...always good to hear from God

Once Majestic!

So the Lion is a majestic animal. Stands in full pride as the king of the jungle...shakes its mane and we all just shudder at how powerful it can be .When you walked around with it, everyone was in awe of what power you possessed, how you walked fearless and hopeful. It happens you know....the lion dies.....it just falls down dead...doesn't matter how it just died. Sad ha! Its ok, you can mourn ...cry ,throw things...ask why...think over and over on what you can do to bring it back to life or what you could have done to save it. But finally the lion has to be buried.

You see it’s a Carcass now...meaning its dead! it don’t talk ..it don’t  listen..its cold. I know you want to keep it close because it gives you a sense of security, a sense of worth or achievement of some sort. You see it’s probably stinking right now, so you are walking around with a stench and you have to drag dead weight, that’s why you have aches and pains all over your body. 

It doesn't look good anymore, some parts are rotting away and you beginning to see the skeleton, maybe that’s why you get the nightmares! Just the form of it there gives you crazy memories and you are stuck in what it used to be. 

But you know what ,the once Majestic Lion is no more....It’s DEAD!

Could it be a job you lost, a lucrative business deal that went bad a venture that has simply become a burden or a relationship that did not work.Maybe even a childhood that to hate to relive.

Maybe it’s time to bury it...let it go. Beauty about letting go is not that you  gave up but you simply left it in the hands of the one who knows it all.

Don’t camp in the grave yard after burial!!!!!!

Luv-Ish

Do you really Love those Chicken Necks

Ok this has nothing to do with the Nyeri  drama.

So this man called his wife, overexcited. “Honey you won’t believe what I just got you.”

The wife was overjoyed because it had been long since the husband bought her anything....but she had to wait till he got back home because it was meant to be a surprise.

Feeling so proud of himself for all the effort he had put into the big surprise drove back home with anticipation. Having been married for years and after the Kids he had not spent so much time and resource on his wife. This would definitely rekindle something.

He got home and sure enough the wife was waiting... too anxious and excited at the same time. And the anticipation grew even more as she saw the big parcel he carried; for sure she could tell this was something he had put a lot of thought into.

“Honey this is just to let you know that I do listen to you and know what you love” he said as he handed over the parcel.Of course she tore through the wrap to get to the surprise. She was finally able to unwrap and guess what CHICKEN NECKS....a whole two kilograms of Chicken necks. Her smile suddenly collapsed into a dead fish look and she turned her gaze to her husband who stood there sheepishly greening to the thought of the thank you he was going to receive that night.....To his surprise she run to the bedroom crying and banged the door behind her.....leaving him confused.

Am sure you are also wondering what the heck is going on in this home.....Ok so here is the Genesis of the story. You see just like many of us wives ,mothers or just women...This lady had a habit of serving herself the neck every time they cook chicken. She felt like she wanted her family to have the best and therefore in the spirit of putting herself last and family first she would pick out the less fleshy part that most people don’t like so that her husband and children could then serve their favorite parts. So for a long time the man wondered why she did that and finally concluded that she must really love chicken necks. So when he found a palace where he could get only chicken necks and at a throw away price  ...he bought as many as he could..Just for her you see!

The man was simply responding to how his wife treated herself.This goes to show that we do really show people how to treat us. If you don’t like something honey ,then don’t take it, don’t serve it, don’t eat it. It is bad for you...please don’t put yourself through something unbearable in the name of humbling yourself or making everyone else happy.This actually applies in many areas of our lives...at work, relationships, dealing with your clients and even relating to our selves. Sometimes we find ourselves in awkward situations because we felt woishe woishe .....   or we wanted to be accepted or afraid that you will not get love in return...but listen if it’s not good for you it’s not good for you.People never get the 'its only a one time thing theory'....If you show them that you can take it then they will pour it on you in their full measure. Here is where the big lesson on setting boundaries  applies...yes you love them, yes you respect them and yes you are willing to do anything  to support  them but If it only demeans you and allows others to take advantage then stand up and be counted.....! If it hurts ,then say it...if you feel reaped of take measures.You only got you to take you through this life. Also don’t confuse those who love you, show them how to truly value such a miracle like you...It will be good for them in the end.

You must be wondering what happened to the couple.....Well,they had to go for counseling ,the wife could not just let this go...haha!

Luv Ish

New Set of Keys to New Possibilities!

Last week started on a high note for me...I was enjoying the space in which I was at. The colours were starting to pierce ready to burst out. I was singing in the shower and loving every sensation of the water hitting on my skin. You see I am a Princess and I was getting ready towards being crowned a Queen. ...Over the past few months I started on a journey to transform my Life. I never doubted my ability to succeed in terms of my career and ambitions. In me I always knew that I got the drive to take me a step further. One thing that terrifies me though is the thought that my soul will forever be masked and shadows cast over it so that I could not see the sunshine ,that I would not be able to laugh from my heart again. You see I am terribly afraid of having it all.....being the most admired by the world and acquiring all that this world can offer but loose myself. In fact I would rather have Love, Laughter and Abundance at heart than be counted among the wealthiest by worldly standards. So I was happy with the strides that I had made, maybe even I had reached my destination

.

But then life has to be life....you can get knocked down and then your old companions begin to taunt you and remind you what you are made of...fear, doubt self pity and resentment. Sometimes for even a moment you are taken back to dark days and you begin to doubt if indeed you are moving forward in this journey!  

Nevertheless I keet my head high and pull myself up, every time I sink in.

So I am to be crowned queen...Yes Alabastron! I know am just in love with Alabastron .It’s been a journey of laughter,fun,fear ,anger ,bitter memories and bitter reality checks, but gold is only refined by fire and indeed in its pure form nobody can know where it’s been through. Last Saturday was the last day of our class which marks the Start of the Journey ...and My heart is full of excitement and hope beyond all hope. I know for sure that My lover and My friend has planned an adventure for my life and I look to my King that He will plant the seed of Love in my heart because I am ready.....Oh love,I am ready to bear the costs of Love because I know for sure that you my Love and my God have me every day at the center of your thoughts and plan so I walk not alone.

Then here Goes Friday Evening, I loose my keys and apparently all the spares are out of reach. So after a day of anticipation and longing here I am .almost eleven o’clock at night, standing stranded at my door thinking really queen!!!!! Mark you I had a terrible day at work...yes bad !I had to take a toilet break just to recover. If  you know me that well, by now you can see the picture of me standing there with tears balancing. I had a plan for the night..I needed to soak myself in scented water, scrub my feet and paint my nails with the brightest colors...you see I had to be crowned Queen in style. But I just lost my keys ...I had a new outfit to wear but it was locked in with my manual, my notebook all my necessary tools. And there it was again a moment of despair.....really Master! did you not know that I needed those keys...at least just for tonight ......

Well I had to sleep at my sister’s place that night and yes thanks to her wardrobe I still looked fabulous even though the night was not as planned. I just remember thinking...Just sleep don’t think and in the morning I was really afraid that my heart would not be receptive or I would not be in a celebratory mood like the day was meant to be.

Trust me the minute I reaches the venue...I totally forgot the events of the previous night. And one thing kept hammering in my spirit, that It don’t matter how hard you planned or what steps I've taken, all God really wanted was my longing to be there ...that’s all...ME...THERE .If only I could take one step towards him then He will  come sprinting towards me, just for me....to give me a new crown, a crown of righteousness. It was definitely a colorful day....Girls do really know how to have a party and our Love was there to take care of our every personal need.

Get this at the end of the day....we had to exchange gifts and guess what.....everyone was getting a new Key holder. 'Kacha!!!!'Yes Honey...Key holder. Remember I lost my Keys, plus the key holder. What! Did God speak or did he SPEAK!!!!! I definitely had to get a new set of keys for my door and God gives me a new Key holder to go! So not only was I crowned Queen but I got a new set of Keys to start on a journey to greater possibilities .I am definitely Royal!

Luv-Ish