She looked down at her wrist watch, in a couple of hours life
as she knew it would change. She had to leave everything behind, all she had
worked for, everyone she loved. She had left in such a hurry that she did not
even have time to pack anything.
The bustling and busy terminus was getting too uncomfortable
for her, it made her uneasy. Too much movement.She felt the urge to want to
control every movement, to monitor every situation around her.
"ohh God! …If only I
had monitored the situation in my life", she thought.
She wondered if the people around her could tell how on the
edge she was. She felt her heart’s echo in her mouth. She looked down at the
time again; it felt like it had stood still, purposefully rendering her stuck
in that unpleasant moment, unpleasant eternity. If only she could get moving,
she just needed to keep going, maybe the further she got away the more the
reality would change.
But where exactly was she going? Did she really think that running
away could change what had happened? Her life was a total mess now, her future
permanently altered for the worst. If only she could sink further and further into
the hole she had dag by her own two hands and burry herself to oblivion,
anything, just as long as she would not have to relive this day.
So there she sat, wondering how everyone else’s life seemed to
be moving on a day such as this. She knew that this was it, her last chance to
do what was right, turn herself in and face the consequences of her wrong
choices …but as easy as that sounded she knew she was not that brave, wouldn’t it
be easier to live a fugitive life, hopping to tame the demons that now stare
endlessly at her.
Suddenly her thoughts became so overwhelming, she was at the mercies of her
impulses feeling as though something had
grabbed her by the neck, she struggled to breathe as her body shook uncontrollably .Her head felt light and
she knew she was about to pass out……..
……….To be continued………
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