Today has been a funny day.......considering stuff,yes stuff that has been rocking this ka -boat of mine (read life).
For
starts...Le Prince de SouthFork ,this song,yes its a song! Fally Ipupa
of all musicians....am glued and the replay button is totally damaged.I
have been listening to this song since the start of the week and let me
let you in on a little secret of mine...am the kind when i say listening to a
song ,i mean listen to it over and over till sunset...thank God
for ear phones!- I know! So you can guess its been in my ear drum for
days now ....don't ask how!
Anyways like I said
today has been Ish Ish.... For some reason I was going through my
facebook page,from 2007..that's when I was "born" and looking at my
posts from those days when they were prompted with 'Ida is......,' I remember how conservative my posts were..OK, conservative and naive..but
I am intrigued as I continue,I see my self evolve and its almost like
am going through an out of body experience..watching this girl having
something to say and saying it with fire in her belly(hahahah I had to
use that phrase). I want to be her, for real do i know her...she sounds charming and profound..Wow! she even makes me laugh! She's also got friends and they are posting back and having good good conversations.
Then
from no where I get this feeling! Am not sure..then the balancing act
starts (of tears) Really ,why now.But these are good tears am actually
feeling proud ,relived and thinking wow and here I have been all along
thinking i needed to work on something,that there had to be a better
version of me. That I wasn't doing it right!But here I am liking my vibe.Ok now am about to
choke...that ka lump is stuck in my throat and am about to burst out in
sobs...so help me God,am at work! Not forgetting this music Le prince de Southfork
playing in the back ground making my emotions go on and on...did I
mention that the song is in Lingala cum French so I really don't get the
full meaning of the song but still it moves me!Yah am just weird like
that!
But today I saw my self from other eyes -Gods eyes I would want to think,
and it was like ...you know what Gal ,you are something for sure.It was
like God was speaking to me...reminding me of the days when I laughed
and when I say laugh I mean LOL! without wondering if I was doing it
right,When I hoped and was not afraid to leap!When I thought and did
not muffle my words because I was sure to still be accepted!Then it hit
me for sure even God must Like this girl......then why not me.
Luv
Ish
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