Bishop T.D Jakes!" When Change Does Not Come Easy!"

Yes he's right ..change doesn't come easy but its inevitable in life and yep we all are blind! I know I am in many areas.This week I have been doing a lot of listening .So I decided to share what I have been listening to. Yes change doesn't come easy  but please let it change you for the better!

I'd rather have Jesus

Here to soothing evening music..

This is Reality!

“Every time you watch a reality series, a book commits suicide” Ha! 

Ok I know this is a serious matter but I am gladly  guilty…in fact someone should lock me up and swallow the keys .Name it I have watched it…The real housewives ,basket ballers  wives, Russian dolls, Keeping up with the Kardashians…Mob wives even the real husbands..Braxton Family values……trust me the list is much more staggering. I have even exhausted the latest and every time I go to my local movie vender, I can see the frustration in his face because he wasn’t fast enough to update the seasons!

At this point I have just remembered that yesterday I was watching Married to the Medicine; Doctors wives...Yes its out and it full of Ndrama and Vendio! Am sure some of ya’ll be wondering why I put myself through such meaningless drama and yes too much adrenaline rush, because truth be told, it  gets so emotionally involving trying to watch  these Crazy women’s lives and there are crazy men in there too.

OK so here’s the deal, when you look at all these women, you kinda get hope. You realize that you are not doing that bad, there are worse drama queens...for those who’ve been labeled that. There are seriously vain people out there ‘WE ARE NOT ALONE’ …and life is not perfect even in the far away lands. Seriously this girls goof a lot even in matters of life and death, you are not the only one who acts a fool ...... hurray! So gal…That flash of embarrassment and sense of despair because of acting before thinking is common to all, you are not the only blonde! :)

 

There’s an upside to this …these girls are fighters, dreamers and majority already in their forties. Nene Leeks…..if you don’t know her then honey you don’t know what laughter you are missing in your life. She truly has arrived and telling the story of how she started living her dream at forty after casting for the real house wives of Atlanta (My favourito) . So girls out there, you could be down in a ditch somewhere wondering how you got there and how you going to pull yourself out or in the sky, flying, living your dream and twirling your way through life...it doesn’t matter, just by the fact that you are WOMAN, your life is bound to be colorful, drama filled and an emotional roller-coaster!!! But that also means you have the Ability to reinvent yourself and life in the most exciting, colorful and dramatic way.

Luv

Ish

Keeping On!

You can’t keep asking questions forever, that I have come to learn

The Why’s are the hardest to answer and even harder to ask.... So I have stopped asking but only in prayer where the answers are comforting.

You can’t keep crying forever, that I pray is true

But even if the tears don’t cease, let my river flow out of gladness and rejoicing…for I realize nothing can stop them.

There’s a time for everything, even the Bible says so

Oh lord let it be my season of Laughter now..... surely I have served my time and the tides should now turn.

Keep dreaming, I have to keep believing that

For I have heard that hope is the only thing that cannot disappoint!

I kinda Like Her

Today has been a funny day.......considering stuff,yes stuff that has been rocking this ka -boat of mine (read life).
For starts...Le Prince de SouthFork ,this song,yes its a song! Fally Ipupa of all musicians....am glued and the replay button is totally damaged.I have been listening to this song since the start of the week and let me let you in on a little secret of mine...am the kind when i say listening to a song ,i mean listen to it over and over  till sunset...thank God for ear phones!- I know! So you can guess its been in my ear drum for days now ....don't ask how!

Anyways like I said today has been Ish Ish.... For some reason I was going through my facebook page,from 2007..that's when I was "born" and looking at my posts from those days when they were prompted with 'Ida is......,' I remember how conservative my posts were..OK, conservative and naive..but I am intrigued as I continue,I see my self evolve and its almost like am going through an out of body experience..watching this girl having something to say and saying it with fire in her belly(hahahah I had to use that phrase). I want to be her, for real do i know her...she sounds charming and profound..Wow! she even makes me laugh! She's also got friends and they are posting back and having good good conversations.

Then from no where I get this feeling! Am not sure..then the balancing act starts (of tears) Really ,why now.But these are good tears am actually feeling proud ,relived and thinking wow and here I have been all along thinking i needed to work on something,that there had to be a better version of me. That I wasn't doing it right!But here I am liking my vibe.Ok now am about to choke...that ka lump is stuck in my throat and am about to burst out in sobs...so help me God,am at work! Not forgetting this music Le prince de Southfork playing in the back ground making my emotions go on and on...did I mention that the song is in Lingala cum French so I really don't get the full meaning of the song but still it moves me!Yah am just weird like that!

But today I saw my self from other eyes -Gods eyes I would want to think,  and it was like ...you know what Gal ,you are something for sure.It was like God was speaking to me...reminding me of the days when I laughed and when I say laugh I mean LOL! without wondering if I was doing it right,When I hoped and was not afraid to leap!When I thought and  did not muffle my words because I was sure to still be accepted!Then it hit me for sure even God must Like this girl......then why not me.

Luv 
Ish

In Between

“I used to think
I had the answers to everything
But now I know
Life doesn't always
Go my way
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between”

Certain things always amazed me when I was a sweet little girlie, very innocently I questioned the very things that seem obvious right now. Where did babies comes from ,how do you start living with someone else as your husband, how do I grow to become like my mom (a woman) .I think at some point I stopped wondering and everything fell in place without much of my input, somehow life just happened and its was ok. There is this part though that I feel kinda stuck about! Yes the becoming a WOMAN part! Its that complicated and I know ya`ll ladies reading this agree with me.
Even Britney had to sing about It (above) .So much has been said and written about her. She’s strong ,she`s wise and warm, all this and more in one woman.
Proverbs 31:10 -31, who doesn’t want to be like this woman! Go getter career woman who still manages to keep her house in order.
So my journey begins. To share my life yes all my life (joys, fears and tears) as I seek to learn, grow and guide. Finding me, spirit body and soul, loving me warts and all.I invite you to blog on with me, share you and your thoughts.
Luv
Ish