Over the last Month I have been spending alot of time at the
beach. I still can’t get enough of the mystery that lies in the large expanse.
I find myself looking out into the waters hoping to see where the outline really ends but I know very well that this is an impossible fete, from my geography I
understand how widespread these waters lie, I might never get to really see
what lies on the other side and honestly if I am to understand any part of the
waters it would be just but a micro fraction of this monster But I love to play
with the water at the shores that I can manage and try to understand. The
ripples play against each other with a rhythm that only they can understand.
The sand underneath forming ridges and mounds that I like to smudge with my
feet.
But I still wonder about the open seas, can I just dive in
and swim across, maybe to some point, maybe just swim and swim and swim .......
I can’t though because I understand the waters are not always peaceful and
friendly, I know the harshness that can come from the belly of this large body
. I know there are creatures ,wonderful creatures, beautiful, strange ,slimy,
spiky and also vicious creatures. But yet they are all creations oh so beautiful.
So I go home knowing
that I cannot understand everything, but there is someone who takes time to
know , the vastness of it all. The peaceful ripples, the high and low tides,
the tsunamis and the eruptions underneath. There’s someone who is well
acquainted with life underneath it and discerns the cycles and feeding patterns.
And........
As the vastness of the ocean is so am I, I stay at the
shores, play with that which I can handle. I know there is a greater depth and
undiscovered waters in me. I know the calm , the swoosh and the swash...but I
also know the raging waters ,the
underwater waves waiting to erupt ,the tiny movement in the bedrocks
that can cause massive destructions .
Yet there is someone who has taken His time to know me
.Inside out he knows me...when am lying with no care in my mind, he knows why,
when I just can’t seem to get out of bed because the world slept on me, cursing
and chastising myself for not being an outstanding human being ,he perceives
those thoughts. He is constantly aware, constantly understanding, constantly
searching. When I can’t seem to learn a new skill as quickly as I want to,He is
acquainted with all these I consider my ways.Even when I break out in laughter
he discerns its journey from my heart.
It feels so infringing, like someone is always gawking at my life...every single bit of it....
It feels so infringing, like someone is always gawking at my life...every single bit of it....
Yet it is so comforting, so relieving and intriguing that I am not
the only one totally aware of my life's story and yes there's a custodian to more
about me than I can understand or even try to explain. How humbling that this
amazing man is My God and My Savior. How honored that He is present at every
moment not to miss any snap shots of my life, to analyse, to caption my life with pleasant words of what He knows for sure about me and what the future is .Most
importantly to watch over me ,my ways,my thoughts ,my hopes ,dreams and paint a new over the canvas of my life..
All these He tells me,and this is how I understand it.....
Psalms 139:1-4
You have searched me, Lord, and you know me
You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my
thoughts from afar
You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar
with all my ways
Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely
Luv-ish ....
